Missing You

My beautiful darling little girl I cannot believe it is less than a month away from you gone from us two years, how can that be possible? How have I managed to get through these last 23 months?  I think of you every second of everyday thankfully it’s not all tears of sadness but of joy at the beautiful memories you honoured us with.

Yesterday I went to a bbq with all the mommies I met when we started going to playgroups.  All your friends were there and your sister Zoëy took Leigh  your nephew with her aswell.  I was amazed at how grown up they all seemed. In the two short years since you passed I have avoided seeing their children for fear it would hurt too much but it was nice to see how lovely little people their becoming. 

Your BFF Niamh was there, still a bit shy and holding back from the others but then that’s why you got on so well wasn’t it – you could boss her around and she never minded.  She’s turning into a beautiful young lady but then you know that already as I know your always watching over her.

I have filled my life with lots of adventures and places to see as you can’t do it.  Grandma and I have booked 3 more cruises and 4 short breaks over the next year but I would Give it all up for one more hug from you & grandad.

Miss you so much bubba xxxx

Cystic fibrosis collection

Last week I arranged a bag pack in our local tesco store in aid of Órla’s memorial fund which goes to The Cystic Fibrosis Trust.  It was a bit scared because although I had helped in many bag pack I hadn’t organised one myself.  I felt it was a bit like organising a party where your not really sure who will show up and whether it will be a success or a flop.

When I first asked my friends I got a lot of yes of course n definitely some check nearer the time but I was confident I would have at least 10 plus people to help me out.  I didn’t want to take up too much of their time so I decided to collect during the hours of 4pm – 6pm which I hoped on a Friday evening would be pretty busy.

When the day arrived I was let down by several people (not naming names) and it really showed me who my real friends are.  I learnt a valuable lesson from this task one which I will not forget in a hurry.

We managed to raise a lovely £700 towards Órla’s memorial fund which I was so grateful for and I chatted to some really lovely people along the way. The public’s generousity never ceases to amaze me.  I got to talk about Órla a lot which always makes me happy.

Would I do it again? Yes definitely.

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